First time being part of a 'band' - the st.cats band for the Inter-college Battle of the Bands competition. First time performing on stage, really enjoying my time and having a great time playing music with the st.cats girls :)

First time going to a club - Flawless Club at Subi. Haha, pretty much just sat there and people watch with Emma for about 30 mins and then we decided to tell the others that we're going back to college. It was pretty funny to people watch actually :p haha.

First time tutoring some of the girls the chinese language - it was pretty interesting actually and fun too when explaining to the girls the meaning of the words and all that.

First time driving! - such an awesome feeling. I love that long windy stretch of road behind Dalkeith.. driving along the road by the beautiful scenery, love it! :))

First time being away from singapore for so long - 8 months odd..

First time being comfortable on my own.

First time realising what i want.

First time finding out how much perseverance i have.

First time realising how much i can actually hold on to something.

First time realising that my "limits" are not actually limits and that when i'm in desperation, i could actually be stretched beyond my 'comfort zone'.

First time walking along the streets to look for jobs, going into different companies and submitting my resume.

First time experiencing such a desperation that i can only look to God for help and for answers.

First time having such a painful heartache.

First time having such an enormous struggle in my life.

First time feeling lost in a familiar place.

First time realising and learning what it means to trust and obey (definitely not easy at all)..

What a year it has been indeed. A very very unforgettable year. A year that i dont think i can fully described what i've felt, experienced and been through... A very bittersweet year for me, but i still thank God for all the experiences i had, for the people whom i met, for lessons learnt, for things that i've come to realise and also...

I thank God for my bestfriend who could always tell how i feel or what i was thinking without me having to say much and for always being there for me. You have taught me many many things and i'll always keep your advices close to my heart. More importantly, you have taught me to be more confident of myself. Thank you, for you have shown me what a bestfriend really means. I also thank God for my family, for loving me. I know i've caused many heartaches, tears and worries.. and perhaps at the end of the day, we still may not see eye to eye about some things, but we are a family and i love you all very much. You all are always very important to me.

2011 is indeed a year that has made me learn, struggle and grow a lot. There are still things that i wished could have been different. But one thing that i've learnt from 2011 is that.. Change is constant. There are changes all the time, be it situations, things or people. I think the saddest of all changes would be people when they changed for the worse.. I've come to realise the importance of some people in my life, people who are worth holding onto.. and for some, i've come to see their true colors and it's time to let go because i'm sick and tired of being taken for granted. So i really want to thank God for the 'constants' in my life. Because no matter how circumstances change, some relationships will still remain the same.

What does 2012 have install for me? I do not know. I honestly do not know. What will i be doing? Where will i be? I have no answers. I am searching too. I'm still learning, still struggling, still trying.. I only know that i have to trust in God to guide. I have to.. because if i don't trust in Him, then i will be very very lost...

2012 resolutions? Simple. To be happy, to be thankful, to persevere on... Even though it is definitely easier said than done, but i'm not giving up...