ever since coming to Perth, i've been learning the lesson of trusting in God everyday. when i just got here, i fell sick - had diarrhoea for almost 2 weeks, and then after the case of diarrhoea, it was cough, flu and high fever.. and now, i have eye infection. (nth really serious. just need to put the antibiotic eyedrop)

i did thought abt it before, is Satan trying to attack me? but then, i know that God is always in control, whatever happens, He will know what to do, and carry me through it. No doubt, there are times when i panick, get scared, worry, etc.. but the thought of God reigning over everything calms me down.

staying overseas, being away from your family and comfort, really teaches you to be more independent. there are so many things that i take for granted, esp my family. like how my grandma will cook and clean, how my dad and mum work hard to let the 4 of us have a comfortable life, like when anything happens i can just turn to my dad or mum immediately, etc.. coming here is when i really learn the lesson of faith and trust. it's really about "being independent of man and dependent on God." really trusting in Him, seeking Him and letting Him be in control.

2 analogies that came to my mind today..

1. sometimes, we are like the car passenger and God is in the driver seat. we know that we dont have to worry much abt where we are going to and just trust Him to lead us through.. so that's good right? but then, humans being human, tend to let worry get the better of us sometimes, esp when we see that the "car" is not going along the "road" that we envision it to be. so we try to be the driver by directing the driver to travel according to how we think it shld be.

just like how, sometimes when we are faced with uncertainties or things are not happening according to what we think it shld be like.. we try to solve things according to our own way and telling (not praying.. telling) God to "let this happen." well... we shld let the driver, who is God, be the driver and trust that even though we may be travelling on roads that we have no idea where it is going to lead to, God knows.

another analogy, though almost similar, is

2. sometimes, we are the driver, we are so sure of ourself, we mapped out our "road" by ourself, thinking that we are very clear of where we want to go. so we sit in the driver seat and drive. but then.. as we continue to "drive", we start to see "unfamiliar surroundings" and then we realise that we are lost.. and then how? we have to turn to either the road map or the GPS for help.

it's just like how sometimes, we are so sure of our own plans that we have planned by ourself and we think that we know what to do.. but then, are we really that sure? eventually, no matter how sure we are, no matter what we plan, we will still need to seek God first, we still need Him to guide us.

both analogies, im guilty of it.. there are times when i let worry get the best out of me.. forgetting that God is in the driver seat, that He is in control. and there are times when im so sure of myself.. and ended up being humbled by God. trusting in God is a lesson that im still learning. it is hard to trust sometimes.. but then, with God in the driver seat, we know we are safe (:

after my stats lecture ended at 3pm today, on a moment of impulse, i decided to take a walk along swan river. well, the initial plan was to just take a short walk and get on the bus when i come to the next bus stop.. but well, who would have known that the walk would carry on till i reach the city.. haa. so eventually, i ended up walking 6+km i guess, for abt 1.5hrs.

i took my time to walk and just take in the beautiful scenery that God has created. It was a nice time with God too, just talking to God about the past 1 month, abt the many little lessons that i have learnt so far, thanking Him for the close friends that He has blessed me with, that ever since coming here, the friendships did not fade but became stronger and also thanking Him for my family whom i have learnt to cherish even more and not take for granted.. and so many other things..

1 month has passed, many more months to go.. and i know, whatever that lies before me, be it good or bad, happy or sad, it's all in God's hands. He will take care of me. and i will hold on to His merciful grace and trust in Him with faith (:

Read a poem on Laiyi's blog and i thought that it is quite nice. And i remember that there is this poem that i came across about a year back.. and i thought that it was simple and meaningful.. so, here it is. enjoy (:

"I am one"
by Helen Keller

I am one
But I am one
I cannot do everything
But I can do something
What I can do
I ought to do
And what I ought to do
By the grace of God
I will do

i miss home, miss my family, my relatives, my friends...

i think my homesickness is retarded. like, after being away from home for 1 month, the homesickness then really starts to kick in.. perhaps cos now that im mostly settled down, so my mind is finally not 'distracted' by all the settling down stuffs and it has time to think about home...

i've got abt 3 more months. Time will fly. Soon, i will be home (:

oh yes. thank God for technology. Skype, msn, laptops, webcams, speakers, phones - technology that aids communication - they are like the best invention so far... haa.