finally, tonight is a night that i can sort of rest and take a breather for awhile. just need to brainstorm ideas for our print ad and radio voiceover. tmr then continue with the crazily tiring journey again..

been feeling very very tired. the ultimate. i think i have yet to feel so tired for such a prolonged period before.. but then again, i know i'll get through this. after all, with God's grace, i managed to survive for the past few semesters.

that aside, the past few weeks have been a rollercoaster ride for my group and i. anger, frustration, disappoinmentment, exasperation, being wronged... blablabla. add that on to accumulated exhaustion and it can be realllly..."urgh!" [i have no idea what word to use to describe this feeling] owell..

a few more days to go and marketing IP presentation will be over by next wednesday! :D and then, it's time to study for exams that will come 12 days after IP presentation...!! :S

and, after exams, finally, it will be my longgggg awaited breakkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D (i guess you can sort of get an idea of how much i want to have a break...)

Army of Israel: "Goliath is so big, WE CAN'T WIN!"

David: "Goliath is so big, I CAN'T MISS!"

Faith.

i am so tired.

so far, this week isn't a good week at all..

ok. i know. considering that i managed to rest and work at a slower pace last week, and it's only tuesday, i shld still be feeling "re-charged"... but, im already feeling a little drained. and it feels like my "angel" and "devil" are debating within my mind...

devil: give up la, just forget abt sch work..
angel: don't give up so easily. you know you can do it..
devil: why care so much? do badly then do badly lor, anyhow do also can. nvm one..
angel: future ah, darling, FUTURE.. and, you want to regret/be depress when you see the bad results meh? forgotten alr ah??
devil: aiyah. you're only in poly... still got chance.. at most, retake lor, scared what?
angel: you know yourself la ah.. retake? RETAKE?! YOU SURE??? and well, you know you can get through this no matter how tiring or scary it may seem.. it's only a few more weeks and then you can have your break already. ANDDDD, you know that God is here for you.. so don't give uppppppp!

and of cos.. the "angel" wins. it always wins. how to not win right? as if i will let the "devil" win like that.. hahaha.

i will persevere!
God, grant me strength plssss. thank You!

the Go Forth public message tonight is quite good. i am reminded once again, that age/gifts/talents is not a problem, and although we may not know what our next step will be, we just need to have faith in God and trust in Him that He will lead us.

我愿奉献我一生
来宣扬称颂祢的恩典
我有了祢已别无所求
只求祢来使用我

been going for the Go Forth Mission Conference for the past 2 nights. the speaker for the past 2 nights is Rev. Morley Lee. His sermons are really good. some of the things he say can make you laugh out loud, some can make you think deeper and some, can make you tear.. like tonight's msg... there are some parts that really struck a chord in my heart..

here are some points mentioned that are a little food-for-thought..

不要错把 "部分" 当 "整体"
Don't mistakenly assume that a "part" as a "whole picture"

不要错把 "过程" 当 "结局"
Don't mistakenly assume that the "journey/process" is "the end"

im not really sure how to explain these 2 sentences in words as different people interpret it differently. i shall just leave it here as it is.. and let you think about it..

guide me as You find me
teach me as You lead me

had a jc/poly/uni students dinner gathering at uncle daniel's house ytd. as always, aunty jane takes good care of all of us .. with her good food. haha. the sharing by uncle daniel is rewarding. a little food-for-thought.

"it isn't about what the church can do for you, but what you can do for the church."

true indeed. it's how we can use the gifts that God has given to us, to serve Him, serve in the church, spread His word and glorify Him.

spend the night at carmen's house as we were going to the airport early in the morning to send yuexing off. slept around 12+am. woke up at 6am. super tired, but worth the while. im missing you already yx! reached home around 9+ .. used the laptop for awhile. but couldn't stand it anymore.. K.Oed from 11+ all the way to 3+pm. tired...

it's been a crazy week.

i think it's my first time staying in school till abt 10.30pm for project. but i guess that's what you do when you realised only a day before the actual presentation that your presentation content is a little off-track... have also been staying up till the early hours of the morning for the past few days.. my mood has also been going up and down..

thank God that i've finished some of the presentations alr.. left SM group project presentation, IS-WISP presentation, IS-DPM presentation and (FYP) integrated project presentation.

for now, i get to rest for a week, before i start my "battle" again.

headaches are irritating.

finally.
IBS solution selling call is over. have not been slping well for the past wk because of this call.. well, as the saying goes "Do your best and God will do the rest" thank You, God (: hard work pays off..

well, one load of my shoulder... left quite a few more.. hahaha.
then i guess it will be the exams. thank God it's only 2 papers.


thank You, for bringing me through..
for listening to my prayers and calming me down when i feared.