tiredddddd... haha. just reached home and bathed finished. the badminton game with my colleagues tdy was rly fun! haha. had a great time playing with them. and got to know them better too (:

haha. guessed what i learnt in office tdy....

i learnt how to set up a computer. hahaha. all the wires, connecting them to the modem, fixing the things. not bad. learnt smthg new. tmr going back to office again. yup. i've to work on saturdays too. but half day la. cnt believe a week has passed alr. so far, work is relatively relaxed.. but on monday, gary will brief me on what to do ... and then the busy period starts! abit scared. haa. cos im nt rly sure how im supposed to go abt it. but well, it's meant to be a learning experience so .... yah.

i think working in this company is nt bad ... as most of them are christians. you can see the support that each of them gives one another, like praying for each other.. and you can share many views abt christianity with one another.

was talking to gary tdy, he's someone who used to go to QBC ... heard some of his views abt our church, also talked abt using our gifts to glorify the Lord, abt charismatic churches and traditional churches .. smthg like that la...

so i was thinking ... not bad leh, can talk and discuss abt some stuff abt christianity in a work place .. and somemore the colleagues are so ... how shld i say, supportive of each other? as in like the prayer part la. you can hear pple saying, "hey, dnt worry so much ok? i will pray for you." or even like simple things, when we go out to eat, then need to find parking space, you can hear one of them praying to God to provide us with a parking lot. simple things like that lor .. so it feels quite nice la .. to work in this company ...

well, 1 wk down, 7 more wks to go ...

thank You, God, for providing me this company and the rly nice colleagues like alice, adeline, gary, cheryl, who treats me rly well (:

attachment so far is not bad. my colleagues are all very nice, funny, friendly and! thank God. most of them are christians (: it feels like im working with pple that i used to noe. hahaha. why do i say so? cos, among my colleagues, one of them is called Alice, she is my mother's, aunty ruiyu's and aunty shuqing's JC friend. she's the first colleague that i got to noe. and well, she rly treats me very nice. hee (: and the other person is, Gary, who used to be from our church, QBC. he noes who my parents are and alot of our church pple lar. and he actually seen my older brother before. haha. but that was a long long time ago, in church, when my kor was still very young hahaha.

the working environment is quite alrte. so far, im still doing filing ... cos there isn't much for me to do yet. but tdy, i was briefed on what i'll be doing for the attachment. so i guess by nxt monday, i will start to get busy. haha.

well, i thank God for this attachment. for providing me with colleagues that are rly nice.
haha. also dnt rly noe how to explain. ask me if you want to noe more la. haha. oh. and i just remembered, my colleagues and i are going to play badminton this friday after work! haha (:

well. my exams are finally over ytd ... im glad that finally i can go slp at night in peace ... without all the tossing and turning and butterflies-in-the-stomache .. AND. i can finally slp at a time that is before 2am. hahaha.

it was a rly tiring, worrying, nervous, stressed, yet rly rly blessed time of preparing for my exam and the exam itself. though it can be quite torturing. but God is always great to place friends around me to support me. be it the SMSes, the encouragements, the small talks, prayers, phone chats and so many more. haiyah. im just so blessed la. haha. blessed with all the friends that i have (:

well, exams are over, and now, work attachment is going to start on this coming monday. im a lil nervous yet excited abt it. well, a new challenge awaits me...

saw ah ma's post abt guy-girl friendship. felt that it is a rly gd post and reminder for all of us. so i thought of posting it too. below is an excerpt quoted from Boundless.org Not Your Buddy by Suzanne Hadley.

"In her book Relationships, former college professor Dr. Pamela Reeve discusses three levels of friendships: acquaintances, companions and intimate friends. Dr. Reeve observes that men and women cannot sustain an intimate friendship without one or the other harboring romantic expectations. She recommends that men and women avoid being intimate friends outside of courtship and marriage.

Dr. Reeve writes: "One party can selfishly enjoy all the benefits of a relationship, the warmth and relief from loneliness, the satisfaction of the attention that feeds the ego — all without the accompanying commitment. One party luxuriates, while the other party feels cheated and is left with deep unsatisfied longings."

In his article Physical Intimacy and the Single Man, Matt Schmucker points out that men defraud their sisters when they indulge in this type of relationship. "Simply put," he writes, "a man defrauds a woman when, by his words or actions, he promises the benefits of marriage to a woman he either has no intention of marrying or if he does, has no way of finally knowing that he will."

Stepping Back

Men and women who find themselves in a dead-end friendship, should take responsibility. A woman is responsible to be wise with her heart. Solomon said, "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" (Prov. 4:23). If a woman feels her heart longing for a man who's not pursuing her, indulging those feelings is unwise.

Just as a woman should take measures to guard her heart in relationships, a guy should seek to protect the emotions of his female friends. Paul instructed Timothy to treat young women "as sisters with absolute purity."

Make Room for Romance

Ecclesiastes croons, "There is a time for love." If, as a woman, you are indulging in an intimate friendship with a man who is not pursuing you, you are accepting a cheap imitation of love. And by spending all your time with a guy who will never put a ring on your finger, you may miss a potential suitor.

If, as a man, you are spending large quantities of time with a woman, you may want to consider if perhaps the relationship is deserving of an upgrade to an intentional relationship that explores the possibility of matrimony. If not, do your sister the courtesy of making your stance clear, freeing her to be pursued by another man.

Above all, if you find yourself in an intimate friendship with someone of the opposite sex, ask the Lord for wisdom and discernment. Describing the complexity of relationships, Dr. Reeve uses the words of a poster she once read:

Involvement with people is always a very delicate thing....
It requires real maturity to get involved and not get all messed up.

"Never," she concludes, "is this more true than in relationships between men and women. "

How true indeed. well. to me, there isn't rly anything wrong abt a guy and a girl being friends. As for being close friends .... well. i wldn't say "No, guy and girl cannot be close friends" but. well, one has to be responsible for his/her actions. as the article has said, "... men and women cannot sustain an intimate friendship without one or the other harboring romantic expectations."

you may think that whatever you're doing, how you behave and how you treat the opp. gender is ok, because you feel that there isn't anything wrong or because you think you know that you are just treating him/her as a friend. but it may not be the same for the opp. gender.

one have to be very careful with his/her actions, because sometimes, knowingly or unknowingly, one may behave a certain way that he/she may nt know is sending mixed messages to the opp. gender. and then the opp. gender might misinterpret this "gesture" and then .. that's when problems start to come in. As friends, we have the responsibility to help our friends and not cause them to "trip & fall".

& we should always guard our hearts, learn to draw the line clearly between friends and intimate partners and not misinterpret others' kind gestures.

so, yup. this is a rly long post. all in all, i think responsibility for our actions and behavior plays a very impt role in any friendship, be it girl-girl friendship, guy-guy friendship or guy-girl friendship.

"... Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires."
Song of Songs 8:4

ok, im not supposed to be here .... but well, im taking a short break from all the studying .. so. haha.

i've fallen sick again. been coughing for abt a week alr. so hopefully i'll recover before the exams ... pray for me ok?

exams are rlllly near, in fact, it's nxt friday )': im super scared for my exams. rly. im rly scared that i will fail and have to retake the module. aiis. rly dnoe what else to do [well, besides studying of course] except to just keep praying to God, asking Him for guidance and trusting in Him. i rly need to learn to have more faith in Him and trust that He will take care of everything. i know that He has alr planned the plans for me, and it may or may not be the way i wished it to be. but well, "not my will but Yours be done" (: i guess our understanding is just too limited to understand why God does things this way, but no matter what happens, it's definitely in our best interests. so! it's a BIG lesson of faith i need to learn!! .... self-reminder: need to stop over-worrying too much. XP and thank God that there are always friends around me to encourage me and be there for me when i need them! :D

yuexing, cheeping and carmen are having their prelims soon. so the 4 of us have been studying together in church every sunday for the past few weeks. though i may nt be studying the same thing as they are studying, but it just feels nice to be studying together, encouraging each other when someone feels tired. haha.

ok. i've rested enough alr. have to get back to my books... i can hear them calling me ............ haha XP ok. not funny. byebye