i felt really tired ytd cos i woke up at 3+am to go to my uncle's hse as my cousin is getting married. [it's the chinese tradition to get married before sunrise.] i thought i would fall aslp during the Global Prayer Day event cos i was rly so tired when i reached church at 5pm. my fingers were trembling and i felt a little hot & cold at the same time.

But when i reached the stadium, the weariness and sickly feeling in me was gone (: It was a time for prayer and repentance. For us to pray together with one another, to come before our Lord to confess our sins and ask for His forgiveness. The worship was good too. When the instruments stop playing, the whole stadium is just filled with everyone's voice, singing and praising the Lord together.

tired as i maybe, i am really glad that i went for the Global Prayer Day event :D

不要小看祷告的力量。
因为我们每一个人的祷告 神都听得见。
因为祷告就是与神说话.
因为祷告就是把我们的一切，无论是赞美的事， 向神悔改的事 etc., 都交托给神。

i like to take long and slow walks, listening to the beautiful songs on my ipod, appreciating the things around me, taking my time. that is what i do everyday when i go home from school.

everyday is so fast-paced, it's like rushrushrush. there is this fear in me whenever i think about sch. it makes me feel like crying. yet i dnoe why. yr 2 is so different. very much so. it's rather tiring..

that's why i like to take those long slow walks. it gives me the time to slow down, reflect and unwind...

tdy's mission fair is indeed a success. though it maybe tiring. but it was worth it. i had fun and enjoyed myself when helping out. thailand ice tea [cha-yen] is really nice and sweet smelling! (: and i saw the photos of the grace home children when they were rly young. they all look SO cute!! :D and they've grown so much. i miss them...

after that at 2pm, i attended the mission meeting/gathering. i feel that it's good to have such a gathering, where everyone can share their thoughts and experiences. and i, being the youngest, get to listen and gain alot from their sharing.

25550. know what this figure means? it means "70 years X 365 days". that is how long an average person might live till .. [though maybe nowadays an average person can live till 80 or more ..] but the main point here is, in the 25550 days of your life, how are you going to make full use of it? what or who are you living for? what is your life's purpose?

Vocare. it means "召唤" in latin. what's your vocare from God?

Dear God, please guide and help me. Teach me to trust in You.
I don't ask for You to take away my fears & worries, but i pray that through all these, with You by my side to lead me, i'll learnt to be stronger.

hee. ytd's post was ... my time-to-time-sudden-panick-and-scared-attacks kind of thing. hahha (: Even though at times i feel like giving up, i know that God will give me the strength to carry on. & He places some pple around me to encourage and push me on (:

& like what one of my favourite verse states "Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything ..." hee. this verse is my constant encouragement and comfort whenever i feel scared, lost, etc..

so now ... on to my research on global warming for my IEF ...!! -pulls hair-
:X

i want to cry alr. i dnt rly like sch anymore.
in fact, im afraid of sch
cos of the projects & quizzes & tests & exams ...
though, i mean all students go through this lar. but ...

& just in another month's time it will be the exams.
i dnt feel prepared at all AND i dnt rly understand some of my modules also.

howhowhow?! )':

it's been like so long since i felt this way.
the last time i think i felt this scared was ....
when i was in sec 4.

i dnt like this feeling.
i dnt.


but life still has to go on lar.
so, scared also no use.
:X

i've been thinking abt the OITP/ITP thing for quite some time alr ... and i need to make this decision soon ... in fact if possible. by this coming friday cos there are things that need to be approve and all that ... though the deadline is end of this month .. which isnt very far away.

i asked 3 pple for advice. and all 3 of them told me that i shld take the chance that i have now and go overseas ... to gain a whole new experience .. to have an eye-opener and see what's it like out there .. to grab that chance and go for it while i can, cos .. not many pple can get that chance.

part of me wants to go overseas. to see what's it like out there. but im scared. to go overseas alone. by myself. [well even if there might be another classmate with me lar .. but still.] and it's not like for 2 wks ... it's 2 mths .. which feels like .. 2 yrs? but i guess ... scared as i maybe .. it's still a rly good opportunity for me. it'll definitely do me good when it comes to compiling my resume.

im still scared. but i guess ... it's time that i come out of my comfort zone and learn to be more independent. so much for saying so much ... im still not sure if i'll get to go overseas with the school. it's all in God's hands. so if i do get to go ... well. then... that's it then. haa (:

had a great time celebrating ah ma's bday on monday night. had a crazy time laughing :D hee. especially the last "surprise" at the end of the night ... HAHA! what a crazy & hair-flying experience eh` (: & finally! i found someone to share my "xiang si bing" with. everytime i think abt the kids ... i miss them so super much that i want to cry .... hee (:

made a crazy decision to pierce my ears together with ah ma on tuesday. our promise since like .. last yr i think during her bday when we were at bugis .. untill one yr later, we finally made our promise come true. ka yee, lydia, angela, caifang, zhifeng, daniel accompanied us cos both of us are like so super scared.haha. it's rly pain at that moment. but after a while it was alright alr, though my ears were feeling hot lar. what a crazy idea haha! (: