我该去还是不该去呢？
我心里是非常的想要去恩典之家，但时间上又不能。
因为去的时候刚好是我 year 2 开学的时候。

mummy says if i rly want to go, i can write in to the school to apply for leave and, if the leave is approved, then i can go lor. if it's nt approved, then obviously i cnt go lar. she said so cos she thinks that usually like, first wk of sch mah, then got like yr 1 orientation, have a lot of activities, and come to think abt it, usually first wk are all lectures. so the time spent in sch is like .. 2 hrs only? .. but the worry is, what if there are like impt stuffs happening, or need to be known.. then i have to be in sch what ... aiis. howhow?

我该如何是好啊?!

the thought of wanting to go back to 恩典之家 again has been there for like abt 10 mths to a year alr. the prev time during last year december, i cldn't go cos i was preparing for exams. this time round, apparently i cnt go again cos it's the start of sch. aiis.

& i think, if this time round i cnt go .. i doubt i can go there again anytime this year. cos usually mission trips to 恩典之家 are during march/april period and oct/nov/dec period. .. and the oct/nov/dec period i def cnt go. cos, it's going to be examss soon.

真得不懂该怎么办。 i guess the only thing i can do now, is to pray, and ask God for His direction.