Thank You, Lord!
I really want to thank God for guiding me once again, teaching me more and bringing me safely and happily through this wonderful and blessed year.
firstly, i thank Him for blessing me with such understanding and loving parents.
i always thought that the path that i shld walk on is, go to JC and then on to Uni .. cos i thought that is what parents would want me to do. but, i guess i was not suitable for the JC style of education. poly was more suitable for me. i thought that my parents would disagree with me .. but, instead, my parents supported and prayed for me. and im glad that i didn't make the wrong choice (: & not forgetting the wonderful surprise birthday they & my friends had for me, & the so many many other things that they have done for me for the past 17 years and counting :P
secondly, i thank Him for the mission trip to Chiang Rai's Grace Home during march this year & the annual church mission conference in july.
the mission trip there, has once again, "dug out" that "buried" thought of mine, wanting to serve Him in the missions ministry, to let the children there know that there are pple who loves them dearly and most imptly, our Big Daddy up there loves them alot too. going there, has also taught me what is it like to enjoy and appreciate the simplest thing that God has given to us. to wake up in the morning and just appreciate the beautiful nature scenery, to breathe in the fresh air, to listen to the sounds of nature, to be just contented with what we have around us. besides the mission trip there, the annual church mission conference during july has also once again, brought the "serve in missions ministry" thought out in me. and then, God works in His own awesome and wondrous ways to talk to me and show me the way.
thirdly, my baptism this year in April.
God has been helping me and guiding me throughout all my ups and downs in my life. and although there are times when i question Him and forget Him. He has never ever forsaken me. esp. through the terrible preparation period for my O lvls. during that period. i was a rly rly lost person. my "sense of direction" was very confused. my emotions were running wild. my temper was really bad too. it was a very difficult time for me. but He was always always there, it's just that i was "blind" and cldnt see. after that terrible period, i thought through abt what had happened, and i thought, God has always been there for me, guiding and loving me, nv forsaking me at all. it's time that i shld commit myself to Him, to give my all to Him and to be His follower....
on April 16th, i was baptised (:
fourthly, i thank Him for the JTTW musical.
through this musical, i've learnt to really rely on Him, to trust Him. i must say, the journey of JTTW is not a smooth one. but it is through this journey that i've learnt alot. i've gained another family too. a family that is full of unity, love, support and joy. when our soul is dampen, we all pray together and for one another. to not let Satan have a hold over us. when someone is happy, the feeling would be magnified and spread among the rest. although we are all from different backgrounds (e.g acjc, sbc, qbc), we all have a common goal, and that is to dance our very best, to glorify God's name and to touch someone out there, to let them know about God. i could really feel God's presence amongst us throughout this whole wonderful journey. when it feels like things are going wrong and we dnt have much time, all we could do is pray and learn to let go and let God. because it is only then, when we learnt to let go and let God, what we received in the end would be so many many many times greater than what we give.
lastly, i want to thank God for blessing me with many "angels" and a "shepard" by my side.
these "angels" have been there for me. when i need someone to talk to, when i need help, comfort, support, encouragement, prayers and so many more. im not going to say who they are. but im really really grateful for them. and, to my "shepard" who has been guiding and caring for me everytime (though im quite positive you wont read this, but anyway,) thank you! (:
there are so many other things more that i want to thank God for because what He has done for me can never be thanked finish. but these are just a few things that happened this year that i reallly really am so so very very thankful for. hee. if i were to list out the other things that im thankful to God for. i think the list will never end (: so , Thank You, Lord for loving me so so very very very much!! :D
this year's december is a very very busy but a superrr FUN one (: throughly enjoyed my december (:
4th-10th:
crazy study week for term tests. was rly worried. but yet somehow, my mind was on JTTW, so i had a lillll difficulty concentrating. hmm .. managed to study though. but i wasnt rly that confident lar. aiis ):
11th-17th:
term tests week and the crucial musical rehearsals week too. so i was rlly exhausted. everyday there rehearsal till 11pm/12am ard there. and then i had to revise for my tests. so it was kinda hard for me lar. but though im exhausted. when im dancing, that weariness and exhaustion just disappears. haha. dancing for the Lord is awesome (: on 15th and 16th were the JTTW musical performance days. TOTALLY AWESOME. rly had sooooooooooooooo much fun. and i rly rly rlyyyy miss those crazy fun-filled times .. )': and 17th morning at 4am, reached airport, 6am. off to chiang mai!
18th-24th:
so frm 17th to 21st i was in chiang mai with yuexing, boonrong, yuetong, leyuan, aunty minglan, hua sze, aunty mingmei, uncle daojun and my family. had a rly great time there. esp the campfire night, the food is great, hte atmosphere is great. absolutely memorable night. came back on the 21st for Soar's camp. had a nice time there though i was a lil tired though. left on the 22nd night cos on 23rd my cousin was getting married. so on 23rd morning, went to my aunty's hse and then we had the tea-ceremony and photo-takings and many more lar. at night the wedding dinner was rly nice and lovely. haha. stayed over at the hotel room suite ..totally zonked out. 24th morning, i reached church very very late. when i reached there, i saw 吴师母 and she said that apparently, almost the "whole world" is looking for me. haha. cos you see, my world is made of many pple, and most of them are my dear church frens.haha! yeah so it was like a mad rush looking for pple, exchanging gifts and hugs. haha. then some of the soar and glowing pple went out for lunch tgther at pepperlunch. had fun there too (: at night, my relatives came over to my hse for potluck christmas party. haha. i love big families. and yes, my hse was rllly noisy. haha!
25th:
went to glowing's Fairytale Masquerade christmas party. it was rly fun. enjoyed myself aloott. haha. am glad that i went for the party though i initially wanted to skip it .. hehe. saw many different characters and the creativeness of everyone. haha.
26th, today:
went to mrs boh's hse in the afternoon abt 2pm. haha. me and shihui were kinda like lost trying to find her hse. i think her hse is rather nice and cosy. initially felt kinda awkard and all that. but. it was alright soon as we started to sit down and eat and talk. mrs boh showed us her photos. HAHA. i had a rlly gd time laughing ... she looked rather different when she was young. haha. and boy! did we really talked. haha. i think we talked for hours. haha we talked abt ... all sorts of things. talked till abt 8.30pm haha. and i think we wld have contd talking if i need not leave .. but i had to go alr cos there's JTTW mini gathering. was late for it alr. supposed to meet at 7pm .. but yeah im rly late. haha. so left mrs boh's hse at abt 8.45pm ard there and quickly took a cab down to lau pa sat. made it there in time. gave presents to the 4 beauties and they gave me these handmade cookies. rly nice of them (: took lots of photos. haha! had a great time laughing as we do imitations of some dances. HAHA! major jaw-ache!
rather busy december huh! haha. but i rly enjoyed myself. time to go back and face reality. i still have my projects to do .. argh )': cnt wait for church this sunday. it feels like ages since ive gone to church. and the countdown at church on sunday night! cnt wait (:
im having a bad case of withdrawal symptoms ... i miss JTTW.
cldnt believe that JTTW has ended. i miss the pple so much! the feeling is rly indescribable. i cnt wait for the mini gathering nxt tuesday. haa (:
for now, gotta go pack my stuff for Soar's camp.
JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL!
the show is awesome, the dancers are awesome, the choir is awesome, the band is awesome, the stage crew is awesome, EVERY single person is awesome. because all of us have an AWESOME GOD! im really really REALLY blessed that i am able to be part of this wonderful JTTW family. it's kinda sad that the show has come to an end ..
i have sooooooo many things that i want to say about JTTW .. but everything is like in bits and pieces. so i guess i need to take some time and organise my thoughts, if nt nothing wld make sense and sound very random. haa (: anyway. just to say, throughout the whole process, the 5 mths or so tht everyone had together to make this production such a great one, though there are times when things are rly tough and all that, but i have learnt what is meant by, teamwork, unity, love, caring, kindness, happiness, craziness, wildness etc ... there is just soooooooo much that i have learnt. and the new friends that i have made. from sembawang baptist church, and ACJC. some of the choir members that i dnoe and so so soooo many more. i'l write more about this whole production after i come back from chiang mai and when i have collected my thoughts .. (:
OUR GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD! AMEN!!
im feeling rly tired, scared and nervous.
i need You, Lord.
please take away these horrible feelings&fears of mine.
