today is such a screwed-up day. a bad bad BAD day. i totally dislike today )':

first, in the morning, had ocom table topic. was SUPER nervous. on the verge of vomitting pls. was hoping so hard that ms lee wont give me a hard topic. soon it was my turn. and waiting to hear my topic is like the longest moment la. i was looking at ms lee and then she smiled at me. AND then. she gave me my 'death sentence' ha! my topic was "Keeping medical cost affordable". my mind totally went BLANK i tell u. totally. and i was busy trying to get my ideas out of my brain. that 1 minute i had for preparation seemed to pass so fast that it felt like 5 seconds only. cldn`t think of any ideas. den i went out and started to talk crap. said smthg like it is v impt to keep med. cost affordable. now there are alot of diseases around us like sars, bird flu. said smthg abt subsidy medisave and medifund. had alot of 'ah's and 'uhm' s. was kinda disappointed in myself. cos i noe i cn perform better. aiis. there`s still one more chance nxt wk. BUT im scareddd!!! aiss )':

now that was the first bad thing. NEXT in the late afternoon at 5pm, had my bsta test. aiiss. study till i go crazy for it. and then wat happen? the test qns are like i-have-no-idea-wat-youre-talking-abt. nvm yet. tried figuring out some and i cld still do the ppr. but then. i was also rly tired. cos i slept at 2 plus am ytd studying stats. cld do most of the qns BUT! the last qns!!! the 10 mark qns!! i din finishhh!!! cos i din have enough timeee!!! argh. now i hope i cn pass my bsta test cos i DON want to retest!! argh. bad day bad bad day )':

ok. have to go and amend my analysis of the econs news article. ... tiredddddd

so it`s the end of the week. and so far i`ve finished 2 presentations alr. CIP on wednesday and CATS tdy. i cnt believe it. after spending such a LONG time preparing and staying up till like 3am 4am in the morning just to finish the projects, it is all consider done in like wat? 15 to 20 mins. haha. this is crazy. but then, yeah i guess it`s always the case isn`t it. as the chinese saying goes, "tai shang san fen zhong, tai xia shi nian gong" literal translation, 3 mins on stage, 10 years preparation. haha

so that leaves me with one more project, OB. a upcoming BSTAT test, econs news article, upcoming OCOM test and my MIEC exam is like on 18th aug?!!! gdness. stress ! )': aiis.

tmr is Sisters' Day for fellowship. hehe. Jie mei ri (: wonder what the guys planned for us. our first jie mei ri. hehe. hopefully it`ll turn out great. cnt wait.

oh mann ... i just remembered, monday have table topic for OCOM. argh. scared la. it`s so impromptu can. hopefully i`ll be able to know what to say when ms lee give the topic. nervous plss ): alrte. gonna get some slp now, tmr will be a long day of studying for my upcoming testS ...

after spending so many days like frm wed to sat staying up till the wee hours of morning like 3am ... i am mentally and physicall exhausted. all these just for CIP. writing up and compiling the proposal is not an easy task. so many things to check , check and re-check. haha. and the proposal is abt 34 pages i think. or was it 38 pages? cnt remember. but for everything bad thing, there has got to be a gd thing too eh. so i guess though im so exhausted, but the thing is after finishing the project. i feel a sense of accomplishment u noe. like. wow. at last we finished doing it. cos my grp and i din thought we cld have done it. haha (: tmr`s the presentation. and then it will be officially DONE !! at last no more CIP. haha. im SO happy pls.

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this month is the mission month in church. "to reach out unlimitlessly in the limited time" how true. when the word mission comes to mind, i think of the kids at chiang rai Grace Home. to reach out to more families in the village there and the children there too. i miss the place alot. i went there for my first mission trip. but it was my 2nd time there that rly left an impact on me. the experience you get from going on a mission trip cnt be explained but must be experienced personally.

during my mission trip there. i felt so ... so happy, relax, joyful etc. the kids there, their laughter are so genuine, the smile on their faces. their beautiful voices. listening to them sing and praise the Lord with their voices. their eagerness to learn the english language. so many so many. the experience is smthg that cnt be bought. i guess i really look forward to the next mission trip to the Grace Home again. but im not realy sure when will it be. nxt yr again? or end of this yr? i dnoe. but if i were to have the chance to go, im sure i wld go.

CIP is a major headache. the computer stuff is making me go crazy. esp having to write the business company proposal report. to think that having to make the 5-page prototype is alr a headache, having to plan out each page, wat links we are going to have, using the dreamweaver. urgh.

for the proposal report, there's just so many things to include and research on. the financial projection is also another big headache. there is also the choosing and stating the benefits of the IT components. and i thought that was it. haa. yet there is still the ppt presentation. best.

nvm. it'll be over soooon.

last sunday after sunday sch, auntie mingmei asked me to find the previous batch of Christmas At Orchard dancers. cos she needs us to join in in a big charity performance. we need 30 dancers from QBC la. 30! so many pls. and the previous time we only had 7 dancers. it`s a christmas charity concert to raise funds for the rainbow special school. auntie jane said that it`s a 100 pple participation. cos need to have singers and dancers. we`ll be dancing at NUS. so they asked if we're interested to join.

i cnt really make up my mind. on one hand, the performance will be held over 2 nights. 15 and 16 dec. and the performance dates are like really near my common tests period. on the other hand, i wld really like to be part of the team. cos i think i will be quite fun.

i think the commitment level is quite high. afterall it is a 3 mths preparation of the performance. not very sure yet. but i guess i might join afterall ... haha

i cnt believe it. it`s alr JULY! sch's fun with a great bunch of frens. BUT sometimes the tutorials and projects and presentations cn just tire me out. got back my common tests results alr. quite pleased with my results. 5 modules, 4 As and 1 B (:

now i have my CIP and OB projects to finish in 2 or 3 wks time. and a MIEC newspaper analysis to be done in 2 wks time. dnoe where to start la. panic. but i know somehow, things will always be alrte in the end haha.

im glad i made the right choice in going to poly. not that it is easier or more slack or watever. but rather that i seem to be able to handle things better here and i feel happier in poly. someone said that i have changed. well. i guess the person is right. i HAVE changed. im aware of that. yet somehow, changed in wat way, im not really that sure of. chracter-wise? personality-wise? i dnoe la. really. but yes. ive changed. for the better i guess. haa(:

anyway. have been watching some of the world cup matches. though i din watch ytd`s england-portugal and brazil-france match. but hearing the results of the matches from cheeping and wu shimu, i think the results is abit hay-wired?! how come brazil will lose?!! aiis. kinda unexpected leh. now im wondering who will win the championship. france? italy? portugal? germany? haha. ok. football isnt rly my thing. hahha