been studying for my chinese these few days. intense chinese studying. study til i dream of chinese words.
these few days also rather tired and worn out. feeling more and more tired each day. so much so tht i cld slp even standing...
falling sick again. my cough is back. just when i just recover, the cough crept back again. and it's even worse this time. haizz.......
feeling kinda moody these days. dunno why. smtimes it's because too many things are happening. and partially coz im tired. one min i will be super quiet and thn i'll speak like super softly. and thn the nxt min i cn be laughing. the nxt min i cn be talking to myself.
smtimes i will forget wad i wanted to do. like just now i went into 7-11 and the moment i stepped in, i forgotten wad i wanted to buy. i guess my brain cnt function well coz it's too tired alr .. smtimes i dun even noe wad i am doing also ... haizz
im feeling super drained...
many a times, i realised tht the things ard me dun usually go according to how i want it. like how things are happening recently..
i guess i'm searching for an answer. the answer to all questions. i feel very lost... and empty sometimes. it's like, suddenly, i'll be asking myself, why am i here? what am i doing? there are so many qns in my mind that i do not have an answer for. i feel very helpless, and lost. and i guess, it is not something that anyone can do to take away that lost and helpless feeling. not anyone .....
besides God
dear God, i noe that You are by my side everytime. teach me to be strong dear God, please, teach me to trust in You..
i've fallen sick.
down with flu cough and sore throat. sooner or later i guess i'm gonna be down with fever? i'm coughing till my throat is like on fire, my chest feels as if it's stuffed with cotton wool and my head feels like it's gonna fly away if i cough somemore ):