half the week is gone .. i have yet to finish my revision n sch wk ..haiss.
i always start freaking out at the thought of exams .. worried that i may nt do well, scared that i will blank out, panick and all that. hate that feeling.. makes me feel so... terrible and insecure ..
sometimes i feel so frustrated ... who can understand me .. deep down right inside me .. who can understand ?? .. it's not like i got great big problems or wad. but, somtimes .. i just feel very irritated .. why? ..
haiss.. why do i always noe wad to say to others who are feel down to make them feel better .. but i can't help myself ?? .. why i can help others .. but when it comes to myself, i dnoe how? sometimes i feel so useless... sometimes i feel tht others are better than me .. and then i tell myself .. why can't i be like so and so ... she is so gd/caring/kind/etc.etc.etc ... and then i will feel so irritated and frustrated and ..wadever ...
i guess, sometimes, the littlest things can affect me greatly ...
to someone : sometimes i feel like saying everything out, but... i choose not to. i mean... wad for? saying all these, would it help? ... i doubt so. i tried before, but wad happen? things just got worse. so i learnt my lesson. sometimes, keeping quiet is better than saying anything. but inside .. i have so many things to say out ... who can i sae it all to ? sometimes it is so irrtating to get compared with others .. everyone on this world is different .. no 2 humans are the same .. ..
so dun expect me to be like them ... "Be who you are, be that completely."