hmm .. have not been posting for quite a long time .. busy preparing for exams ... noth much to say anyway .. at least .. for now .. mabbe i shall stop blogging untill after exams .. which is like .. Oct 13? yeah i guess so .. and my exams starts on Oct 6 .. how nice eh ... not.
been feeling scared this few weeks ... scared of my end of year .. scared that i might get retained .. scared that i cannot do well .. scared that i will fail .. scared that i dun have enuff time to revise finish .. scared scared scared ... haizz .. dunnoe wad to do .. then tdy at church ... listen to pastor seah's sermon .. feel that the sermon was somehow speaking to me ..
the sermon is abt :
everyone is special in God's eye. He prepares our road for us. He has already planned for us. He knew what we are going to do before we even do anything. He is always with us. ... ...
felt that this sermon realli speak to my heart. as i know that i have been feeling scared over many things.. worrying for the tomorrows and the future ... sometimes .. i am so scared and worried that i can just cry .. though that is not often la. tdy's sermon helped me alot .. it taught me not to worry .. for
God is always with me no matter what. and He has already prepare my road for me. well .. after listening to this sermon .. i feel a sense of calmness in me .. dun realli know how to explain .. but somehow .. i am not that paranoid anymore .. heh ..
anyway .. it's kinda late now .. gotta go slp ..
"When you wish upon a star, you just might become one."
feeling tired... exams are coming .. mann .. gotta mugg and pia my way thru ... super tiring...
all of the sec 3s had a wake-up call from mr hang during assembly tdy .. hmm .. better start working extra hard ... haizz :/ felt tired the whole day .. not enuff slp i guess .. my right eye has been twitching for abt 1+ wk already... pple usually say when ur eye twitch .. it means that bad luck is coming .. but not for me .. when my
eye twitch .. it always means that
i dun have enuff slp .. and my eye is still twitching! .. mann .. i'm tired ..
long day tmr .. have netball training ... gotta go get some slp ..
"When you wish upon a star, you just might become one."
half the week is gone .. i have yet to finish my revision n sch wk ..haiss.
i always start freaking out at the thought of exams .. worried that i may nt do well, scared that i will blank out, panick and all that. hate that feeling.. makes me feel so... terrible and insecure ..
sometimes i feel so frustrated ... who can understand me .. deep down right inside me .. who can understand ?? .. it's not like i got great big problems or wad. but, somtimes .. i just feel very irritated .. why? ..
haiss.. why do i always noe wad to say to others who are feel down to make them feel better .. but i can't help myself ?? .. why i can help others .. but when it comes to myself, i dnoe how? sometimes i feel so useless... sometimes i feel tht others are better than me .. and then i tell myself .. why can't i be like so and so ... she is so gd/caring/kind/etc.etc.etc ... and then i will feel so irritated and frustrated and ..wadever ...
i guess, sometimes, the littlest things can affect me greatly ...
to someone : sometimes i feel like saying everything out, but... i choose not to. i mean... wad for? saying all these, would it help? ... i doubt so. i tried before, but wad happen? things just got worse. so i learnt my lesson. sometimes, keeping quiet is better than saying anything. but inside .. i have so many things to say out ... who can i sae it all to ? sometimes it is so irrtating to get compared with others .. everyone on this world is different .. no 2 humans are the same .. ..
so dun expect me to be like them ... "Be who you are, be that completely."
